Home was wonderful. So much so that I've decided to end my time here and go home early. I had originally intended on returning to the US in December, but I've decided since I have a wedding to go to October 22, I'm going to return then (on the 18th).
Before you ask, I'm perfectly fine. Everything is great. I have just realized that I am feeling pretty done here. I have done what I came to do. I came here with nothing and no one and I made it work. I am confident that if I wanted to, I absolutely could stick it out and stay longer. The reality is, however, I just don't really want to anymore. I am ready to return to the USA to be closer to people I love.
I think what really did it for me was that I just don't feel safe here. I am constantly looking over my shoulder and worried about who is going to come out of no where and attack me. While I realize that the US is no safer than CR, at least I'm not a target there. I am probably less likely to be attacked in the US given that I don't stick out like a sore thumb. Here, I can't blend in. No matter how good my Spanish is and how well I know the country, I will never look like I belong here. A tall, very white girl with huge green eyes will never look Tica.
I am truly sad to be leaving the friends I have made here. In particular, my roommate is one of the kindest most generous people I've ever met, and I couldn't have asked for a better person to live with. Whoever lives with her next is one lucky kid. I know I've gushed about her and her friends, but honestly nothing I write could do justice to what great and welcoming people they are. I have been so lu I have to say, I am really excited to be home for Halloween and especially Thanksgiving.
Yay Amurica.
What I've been up to since being back is coming in the next post.
